I've got a basic, ubiquitous level of pain that never goes away -- ever. I could be having a great day, be full of the joy of the Lord, and really loving life ... but the pain would still be there.

For the most part, on a daily basis, life is alright. I spend time with JESUS, I'm constantly encouraged by the word of God, I listen to solid biblical teaching, and I pray for my family. But below the surface of what I've come to call "normal life," there's a Leviathan of pain and anguish that I don't think will ever be assuaged this side of being able to see my children again.

I am, however, constantly amazed by the grace of God. His grace truly is sufficient for everything.